Saturday, September 30, 2006

Well, we had the timeline chat. He was great - totally understands where I'm coming from, and he's broody too except that it isn't an insanity with men like it is for women! While we didn't set an exact date, he is going to see a possible new employer this week and we have more or less agreed that less money is ok if it's a better job. I think the overall result is more steam behind the jobsearch, which will lead to a quicker result - i hope!

If anyone has any spare prayers, spells or good wishes, please could they point them towards DM getting a good, well paid job that he will be happy doing long-term.

Thanks xxx

Friday, September 22, 2006

Oh help! I think I'm going mad!

I've mentioned once or twice that I'm completely broody, right? It's getting worse. I am going into meltdown!

My sister, my YOUNGER sister (she's 24yo, i'm 27), is 4mos pregnant. My friend Karen just had a baby. My friend Lisa's baby is 10 mos old and today he CRIED when I left. He actually cried for me, and this kid has seen me once a week at most. I got into my car on the verge of tears.

My situation is that we are going to have kids, but not yet. He wants a more stable & better-paying job, which is fair enough because his current job situation is awful. He's looking hard, but hasn't found anything yet. And in the meantime, I wait. And it's driving me nuts. I was broody for a couple of years before I even met the guy, and now I have the man I'm pretty sure I want to spend my life with and it's getting worse month on month.

Does anyone have any advice? Maybe a herbal remedy to make my hormones SHUT THE FUCK UP? But it's not just my hormones. It's my heart. I yearn for a baby. I once had to give Lisa her baby back because he was laughing up at me and I thought I was going to cry.

Oh God, I need help!!!